Bloggin' Weather! (04.27.14)

I'm just going to go ahead and admit this...I am a MAJOR chicken when it comes to storms. Some people are all, "aw, I love it when it storms, I sleep like a baby, I love the sound of thunder and rain on the roof..." The hubs is totally one of those people. He is currently snoring away, meanwhile I'm laying here wide awake until I know for sure, 100%, without a doubt that we are safe from the paths of these storms. So, since I'm wide awake, everyone else is asleep, and my tv won't pick up signal, sounds like a great time to do something productive some blogging! Here is a little of what's going on in my mind on the subject of blogging. Most of the bloggers I follow are fitness journey bloggers, more specifically the ones I follow were unhealthy, came to a point where they were unhappy enough to change, and then they begin their journey to lead healthier lifestyles. I've noticed a pattern that I seem to be following with nearly every blog I read. I start reading the blog because of the "ugh, what am I doing to myself" stories, then I'm rooting them on & following along in the "aha moment, let's do this" phase. During the phase where they start to see results I get so inspired & want to see the same in myself. Then finally, while they are blogging about workouts, recipes, how far they have come, I start to lose interest. I feel like it comes down to the fact that I have never met a goal like that to be proud of, so I don't quite relate. Now don't get me wrong, I've met lots of goals like finishing college in 4 years while working full time and being a wife & mother. Or like getting my degree, owning a home, and owning our own cars completely by ourselves by the age of 21. But I have never set a PHYSICAL goal for myself & met it. I want to have the aha moment, I want to work hard & get results; I just have never actually gone through with something like that, so I feel like that's where the disconnect is with the blogs that I follow. I have my own theories about why I haven't gotten to that  moment where it just clicks--my husband is fantastic & tells me that I'm beautiful daily, so I haven't had a point where I feel like my weight affects my attraction with my husband. I feel really happy with where I'm at in life right now...the expression is "fat & happy" for a reason. When you're happy, you feel comfortable, so why should you change a thing, right? Wrong! Also, there is my PCOS. It is proven to be a barrier for weight loss and can in fact cause weight retention and inflammation (look it up!). The insulin resistance that is part of the PCOS makes it nearly impossible for my body to break down fats and carbs, meaning my body doesn't have the tools to keep my metabolism going at a healthy rate. It just doesn't, not without the help of medicines. My goal is to set a physical goal for myself. I don't want to just set myself up for failure, so I'm going to take some time, think about what I really want to accomplish, make a plan, maybe even start with a series of small goals, or maybe one small goal at a time...I'm not sure yet. But something I've heard in most of the stories I read, is that blogging about your goals keeps you accountable for sticking to your plans. Even if you only have one reader, that one reader is going to be watching to see if you stick with what you blog. That's pretty good motivation, if you ask me! Here's to a hiatus of figuring things out! ;) Y'all have a fantastic week!